Well it wouldn't be by accident. ...What I mean is, animals don't like me. Cats hate me. And I smell them and I just, I just want to chase.
But it's not as bad here on the Barge. And even at home, I've never done anything that I didn't decide to do. But there's lots of myths, and probably bad movies, about what I am that make it look like we can't control ourselves.
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[She nods; she understands even if she's never really had a pet, even if she will never be able to have one at home.]
Humans are supposed to hate me. I don't know why they don't here. People's pets don't hate me, either--things are just different here. I don't have the guts to, you know, try to pet any of the animals or anything. But it's nice they don't freak out so much around me. My warden's got two dogs, and he keeps 'em away from me mostly, but they've never tried to bite when they see me. Neither does Iris's dog.
[Only if she moves into their space, into their cabin, which she tries not to do.]
She seems like she's having a tough time. [she puts this carefully, tactfully] And she said she'd probably be dangerous to someone like me so I didn't go see her in person, just told her she could call me if she needed.
I was kind of hoping you'd talked to her, 'cause I haven't heard from her or seen her on the network.
I think she'd really like that. [Hopefully. Annie doesn't know Shiro at all, but the girl seems lonely, and Credence has very little to fear from anyone.
She lights up a cigarette, feeling better about Credence but no less alone, no less like she has her back to a wall. Smoking staves off loneliness, grief, trauma. If Credence ever hits a serious snag in his progress, she'll introduce him to a Kool and tell him about its powers as a personal therapist.
And then Alec might kill her, so that's a last resort.]
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....Yes.
[He wasn't sure of that before, but he's paying attention now.]
Um.
I have a cat. I don't want to eat him by accident.
cw: reference to potentially gross animal death
Well it wouldn't be by accident. ...What I mean is, animals don't like me. Cats hate me. And I smell them and I just, I just want to chase.
But it's not as bad here on the Barge. And even at home, I've never done anything that I didn't decide to do. But there's lots of myths, and probably bad movies, about what I am that make it look like we can't control ourselves.
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Oh.
...I don't really want him to hate me either.
cw: reference to potentially gross animal death
Humans are supposed to hate me. I don't know why they don't here. People's pets don't hate me, either--things are just different here. I don't have the guts to, you know, try to pet any of the animals or anything. But it's nice they don't freak out so much around me. My warden's got two dogs, and he keeps 'em away from me mostly, but they've never tried to bite when they see me. Neither does Iris's dog.
[Only if she moves into their space, into their cabin, which she tries not to do.]
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[He goes quiet for a long time.]
I don't know what I'd do if he hated me, or - if he was scared of me. I promised I'd look after him.
[Yes, this promise was made to a cat, but it still counts.]
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[her tone is warm, approving.]
You're a good guy, you know that?
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Uh, by the way, I checked up on your. Uhm. Your friend, Shiro.
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I haven't really - I mean, not since -
Is she okay?
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I was kind of hoping you'd talked to her, 'cause I haven't heard from her or seen her on the network.
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I...miss her.
[Strange feeling.]
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I think she'd really like that. [Hopefully. Annie doesn't know Shiro at all, but the girl seems lonely, and Credence has very little to fear from anyone.
She lights up a cigarette, feeling better about Credence but no less alone, no less like she has her back to a wall. Smoking staves off loneliness, grief, trauma.
If Credence ever hits a serious snag in his progress,
she'll introduce him to a Kool and tell him about its powers as a personal therapist.
And then Alec might kill her, so that's a last resort.]
Let me know how it goes, huh?
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...I'm sorry I changed my mind.
I do want to, I'm just...there's too many things that might go wrong.
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I...
I'll remember that.
Thank you, Annie. You're...a good friend.