[ He breathes in deep and he breathes out slow and by god does he thank his past self and even his own trauma that he can compartmentalize. ]
I never said it wasn't your business.
And I never said I would kill anyone. Even what I said just then? Is you making assumptions. About me. And about the right way to get justice.
Daniel is my mate. I thought I'd made that clear? But I'll restate it. And yet. Here I am. Trying to talk to you. Trying to treat you like a person. And not a threat.
No, I didn't try to stop him. Because I never knew it was coming. Because he didn't tell me. I? Found out when Connor was shooting out my kneecaps. Instead of shooting out my brains.
I can't prove you wrong. Because you? Of anyone? Should know that violence. is sometimes the only language someone's pain can be voiced in. And you can talk about wardens and inmates, but that talk is cheap coming from someone who got her shit together enough to graduate. And then lost it on an inmate.
You're not a poor little inmate trying to defend her pack.
You're a warden who lost her perspective on what's important and let herself fall back into that kind of behavior when she should know better and is content to keep falling into it because you're a bubbly blond who knows how to talk about their emotions. And he's a scarred up jackass whose been taught by life that his only worth? Is in destroying things.
So don't talk to me about who I love. And how I love them. And how I'm 'threatening' you.
I came to you, as a wolf, to a wolf.
I came to you, as someone who just had to bathe. and clean. and hold the broken body of the person I love. more than anyone.
I came to you. asking for you to show the same compassion to him. that you give yourself. Knowing that he's trying. And that he'll make mistakes. And that his mistakes look different from yours. Aren't as 'palatable', even here.
And I told you. that if you don't show him that compassion. I, as a new wolf. As someone who loves him. As someone who. is holding back my instincts. right now. With a goddamn thread. Someone who is just learning how to handle not just. my anger? But a wolf's anger.
And that if I do? It will go poorly for you. Because I don't like hurting people. But I am very very good at it. And I don't know how much more plainly I can say it? But it is still. Not. A threat. Not even a promise.
It is a prediction. And one I would prefer to avoid.
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I never said it wasn't your business.
And I never said I would kill anyone. Even what I said just then? Is you making assumptions. About me. And about the right way to get justice.
Daniel is my mate. I thought I'd made that clear? But I'll restate it. And yet. Here I am. Trying to talk to you. Trying to treat you like a person. And not a threat.
No, I didn't try to stop him. Because I never knew it was coming. Because he didn't tell me. I? Found out when Connor was shooting out my kneecaps. Instead of shooting out my brains.
I can't prove you wrong. Because you? Of anyone? Should know that violence. is sometimes the only language someone's pain can be voiced in. And you can talk about wardens and inmates, but that talk is cheap coming from someone who got her shit together enough to graduate. And then lost it on an inmate.
You're not a poor little inmate trying to defend her pack.
You're a warden who lost her perspective on what's important and let herself fall back into that kind of behavior when she should know better and is content to keep falling into it because you're a bubbly blond who knows how to talk about their emotions. And he's a scarred up jackass whose been taught by life that his only worth? Is in destroying things.
So don't talk to me about who I love. And how I love them. And how I'm 'threatening' you.
I came to you, as a wolf, to a wolf.
I came to you, as someone who just had to bathe. and clean. and hold the broken body of the person I love. more than anyone.
I came to you. asking for you to show the same compassion to him. that you give yourself. Knowing that he's trying. And that he'll make mistakes. And that his mistakes look different from yours. Aren't as 'palatable', even here.
And I told you. that if you don't show him that compassion. I, as a new wolf. As someone who loves him. As someone who. is holding back my instincts. right now. With a goddamn thread. Someone who is just learning how to handle not just. my anger? But a wolf's anger.
And that if I do? It will go poorly for you. Because I don't like hurting people. But I am very very good at it. And I don't know how much more plainly I can say it? But it is still. Not. A threat. Not even a promise.
It is a prediction. And one I would prefer to avoid.