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There has always been risks in being true to oneself, Annie. People have been destroyed for loving and feeling.
He needs to see that the benefits outweigh those risks.
He needs to see that the benefits outweigh those risks.
[ She draws in a breath. That strikes home, soothes her mind a little. ]
You're right. You're right, any time you love someone it's a risk. And you're gonna get hurt no matter how much you love someone.
He put fireflies in the Greenhouse for me. In a port, we were best friends and we went and sat on a hill to watch the fireflies a lot? And when we got back I told him I'd never seen real ones. We're going to go look at them when he's ready.
You're right. You're right, any time you love someone it's a risk. And you're gonna get hurt no matter how much you love someone.
He put fireflies in the Greenhouse for me. In a port, we were best friends and we went and sat on a hill to watch the fireflies a lot? And when we got back I told him I'd never seen real ones. We're going to go look at them when he's ready.
[Every time you love someone it's a risk. Yes. Precisely.]
That sounds wonderful, Annie. A memory with a dear friend. I think it will bring some comfort him.
That sounds wonderful, Annie. A memory with a dear friend. I think it will bring some comfort him.
Thanks. For talking me back out of freaking out. I gotta get dressed for when he comes by... can we do breakfast tomorrow?
Ah, maybe not breakfast. A walk after, perhaps?
Just haven't had an appetite for more than black coffee.
[Not suspicious! Not suspicious at all!]
Please call on me if you need anything, Annie.
[Not suspicious! Not suspicious at all!]
Please call on me if you need anything, Annie.
[Black. Coffee. No you are getting a muffin, sir.]
I will. And you call me, too, this is a two-way street, okay? I'll see you tomorrow.
I will. And you call me, too, this is a two-way street, okay? I'll see you tomorrow.
That concerns deepens, and melts into something protective. He takes her hand and moves with her, closing the door behind him.
"Terrible business," he replies. "Is there anything I can attend to for you?"
"Terrible business," he replies. "Is there anything I can attend to for you?"
Thank you, Annie.
For teaching me something very important.
For teaching me something very important.
[She still has just one arm--it's mending but shifting from wolf to human and back refractured the bone so she's letting it rest.
She's also waiting for the other shoe to drop.]
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She's also waiting for the other shoe to drop.]
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This IS Annie's inbox, yes? I have the right person?
Yes
This Warren rite? just dont remember seeing/talking to u a lot?
[So she's not sure at all how she could have 'taught' him anything, and text always makes her nervous.]
This Warren rite? just dont remember seeing/talking to u a lot?
[So she's not sure at all how she could have 'taught' him anything, and text always makes her nervous.]
Got it in one! Yes, this is Warren.
We were just starting our acquaintance. We had some awkwardness around the issue of Lark and your former pack, but we were getting through it, I think. You seemed very sweet and we had a nice talk about some of the sensitive issues present there.
Unfortunately, due to the nature of my former employment, I tend to default to 'forgettable but pleasant' until the second or third conversation. It's just easier, you know what I mean? But you know who I am now, I hope.
We were just starting our acquaintance. We had some awkwardness around the issue of Lark and your former pack, but we were getting through it, I think. You seemed very sweet and we had a nice talk about some of the sensitive issues present there.
Unfortunately, due to the nature of my former employment, I tend to default to 'forgettable but pleasant' until the second or third conversation. It's just easier, you know what I mean? But you know who I am now, I hope.
i remember :)
i dont read or rite very fast maybe phone call better?
[at the very least it would let her hear any nuances she's missing via text]
i dont read or rite very fast maybe phone call better?
[at the very least it would let her hear any nuances she's missing via text]
[ A smily. Wow. W o w. ]
No, no, I won't take up too much of your time and honestly, what I need to say really only needs a yes or no answer by the end so it shouldn't be too bad. I want to go into the lesson part more in a public post, so I can share that lesson with everyone. I've only recently graduated, the whole warden thing is new, but I'm a big believer in making sure that if you learn something, you should share it with the class. That way we're all moving forward. So I promise I'll get to that, but I wanted to handle this other business here, privately, because it seemed like the appropriate venue for it.
Daniel Jacobi is the most important person in my life and has been for over seven years now.
I am aware that you killed him.
I am not sure who you asked to raise him, I assume your warden, but it hardly matters. Other than what I consider a breach of etiquette and when emotions are high, these things happen. Especially for newer wardens.
Also, I am aware that it was almost certainly in revenge for his previous actions.
And I want you to know that I understand. I do. I spent the last week or so with visions of his dead body floating behind my eyes because I've been here long enough to know how this place works. I was very much prepared for this. And the fact that it was you? Also unsurprising. You've had noted trouble with your temper, you're very close to Connor, and I still have my nose.
Now me, personally, I've done my very best while on board to mind my own business, to keep my hands to myself (as they say), but I have slipped up the once punching someone and that was, well, it was regrettable. We're all adults here, after all. We should use our words.
Which is why I'm sending you this message to let you know that for the moment, as things stand, I have no intentions of saying anything or doing anything necessarily even given the facts I've laid out. I don't even feel like this necessarily has to be the end of getting to know one another! Though of course, you may feel differently.
Still with me?
No, no, I won't take up too much of your time and honestly, what I need to say really only needs a yes or no answer by the end so it shouldn't be too bad. I want to go into the lesson part more in a public post, so I can share that lesson with everyone. I've only recently graduated, the whole warden thing is new, but I'm a big believer in making sure that if you learn something, you should share it with the class. That way we're all moving forward. So I promise I'll get to that, but I wanted to handle this other business here, privately, because it seemed like the appropriate venue for it.
Daniel Jacobi is the most important person in my life and has been for over seven years now.
I am aware that you killed him.
I am not sure who you asked to raise him, I assume your warden, but it hardly matters. Other than what I consider a breach of etiquette and when emotions are high, these things happen. Especially for newer wardens.
Also, I am aware that it was almost certainly in revenge for his previous actions.
And I want you to know that I understand. I do. I spent the last week or so with visions of his dead body floating behind my eyes because I've been here long enough to know how this place works. I was very much prepared for this. And the fact that it was you? Also unsurprising. You've had noted trouble with your temper, you're very close to Connor, and I still have my nose.
Now me, personally, I've done my very best while on board to mind my own business, to keep my hands to myself (as they say), but I have slipped up the once punching someone and that was, well, it was regrettable. We're all adults here, after all. We should use our words.
Which is why I'm sending you this message to let you know that for the moment, as things stand, I have no intentions of saying anything or doing anything necessarily even given the facts I've laid out. I don't even feel like this necessarily has to be the end of getting to know one another! Though of course, you may feel differently.
Still with me?
Edited (misplaced word) 2021-08-28 16:29 (UTC)
[Ah yes this is why she dropped out of high school. 'I can't keep up' somehow always translates in these people's minds to 'okay here's a novel to remind you how stupid you are'.
But the old, old frustration aside, she does try. She reads it, has to start re-reading it four or five times. Has to put it down, get a drink, come back to it from the start again.
Is she still with him? no. But as in every classroom she ever flunked out of she knows there's no point in saying so. He isn't here to talk to her, he's venting, he's flashing his knowledge and all the sharp knives he might have in his coat. She is meant to sit and nod at the appropriate moments.]
isnt revenge & words dont do a helluvalot
go on
But the old, old frustration aside, she does try. She reads it, has to start re-reading it four or five times. Has to put it down, get a drink, come back to it from the start again.
Is she still with him? no. But as in every classroom she ever flunked out of she knows there's no point in saying so. He isn't here to talk to her, he's venting, he's flashing his knowledge and all the sharp knives he might have in his coat. She is meant to sit and nod at the appropriate moments.]
isnt revenge & words dont do a helluvalot
go on
Sorry about the novel. You just start writing and you don't even know how long you've gone on. I do that out loud too, to be honest. And there I go again, really, I don't mean to.
But I'll keep it brief now.
If you touch him again, I'll get demoted. And you really really won't like it.
So if we could skip that? I'd really appreciate it. I realize you're probably not in the mood to talk to me but like I said, just need to know one thing: do we have an understanding?
But I'll keep it brief now.
If you touch him again, I'll get demoted. And you really really won't like it.
So if we could skip that? I'd really appreciate it. I realize you're probably not in the mood to talk to me but like I said, just need to know one thing: do we have an understanding?
[This, at least, she can follow. And where she had cowered at home and let the last of her family members die, she isn't afraid now. Well- not as afraid as she was.]
keep him away from my pack and won't be a problem. i didnt start this he did. u knew he was dangurus when he blew someoens hands off so dont tell me hes just some poor lamb. go give him ur novel maybe hell listen to ur threts.
keep him away from my pack and won't be a problem. i didnt start this he did. u knew he was dangurus when he blew someoens hands off so dont tell me hes just some poor lamb. go give him ur novel maybe hell listen to ur threts.
There's no threat here. I'm giving you a series of events.
You touch him. You won't be happy. That's all.
Cause and effect. Simple.
I'm not arguing his merits. Or yours. I'm just laying things out. Things that don't have to happen. I'd prefer they didn't.
You touch him. You won't be happy. That's all.
Cause and effect. Simple.
I'm not arguing his merits. Or yours. I'm just laying things out. Things that don't have to happen. I'd prefer they didn't.
he touches my pack = he dies slower each time. super easy.
i think ur an ok guy but dont care if u get demoted its ur business not mine. dont want to fight him/hurt him or u but since i actualy care when someone gets hands blown off or brain rewired guess thats where it has to go.
i think ur an ok guy but dont care if u get demoted its ur business not mine. dont want to fight him/hurt him or u but since i actualy care when someone gets hands blown off or brain rewired guess thats where it has to go.
So we're at assumptions and personal attacks? Wow. W o w.
Clearly you DON'T think I'm an okay guy and this passive aggressive behavior is, well, it's unbecoming. And I would have said it was below you. But you learn something new every day.
You don't touch him again. Super easy.
And I think you'd care about my demotion. I just figured you'd understand what I meant by that. I'd rather not spell it out because it would be a lot of words.
Clearly you DON'T think I'm an okay guy and this passive aggressive behavior is, well, it's unbecoming. And I would have said it was below you. But you learn something new every day.
You don't touch him again. Super easy.
And I think you'd care about my demotion. I just figured you'd understand what I meant by that. I'd rather not spell it out because it would be a lot of words.
pretty sure im not passive aggressive im being aggressive aggressive?
u already threw a dictionary at me give me all ur words
u already threw a dictionary at me give me all ur words
No, [ and his voice is cool and smooth and calm ] you said the words don't do a hell of a lot. And if I'm going to use my words? I want them to matter. So. A phonecall it is.
Firstly, I very much do care. About both of those things. And have done what I could for those afflicted. What interpersonal concerns I have with Daniel over his actions aren't something I feel is necessary to air to the entire ship at large. Talk is cheap. People are going to make their own assumptions. And frankly, it's none of their business.
[ He clears his throat. ]
So. About demotion.
First off, I think I mentioned this? But my profession was strategic intelligence... and problem solving. Sometimes problems require legal action. Sometimes, they require burying in the desert at an undisclosed location. Sometimes, they involved torturing someone's spouse in front of them until they signed something legally binding after we got sufficient blackmail material. Problems... are temporary. You work through them.
So with that context, when I say that I've never killed someone aboard this ship, you might understand that I don't enjoy that kind of thing. I don't. I'd rather avoid it.
But.
Sometimes, it's the only way to solve a problem.
I don't want to have a problem with you. I don't. I think... you're a perfectly nice person who has some issues to work through and you make... mistakes. From that perspective, you and Jacobi are very similar, even if his claws... manifest differently. Honestly, that description works for a lot of the people here, if you think about it. And I'd be the first person to say that Jacobi has issues to work through. Work to do.
So here, now. I'm asking you to think about it. That's all. Think about it, and hopefully, understand what I'm trying to do here. I'm trying to solve a problem with as little mess as possible.
No passive aggressive. No aggressive aggressive. Just plain language, and honest truth.
Got it?
Firstly, I very much do care. About both of those things. And have done what I could for those afflicted. What interpersonal concerns I have with Daniel over his actions aren't something I feel is necessary to air to the entire ship at large. Talk is cheap. People are going to make their own assumptions. And frankly, it's none of their business.
[ He clears his throat. ]
So. About demotion.
First off, I think I mentioned this? But my profession was strategic intelligence... and problem solving. Sometimes problems require legal action. Sometimes, they require burying in the desert at an undisclosed location. Sometimes, they involved torturing someone's spouse in front of them until they signed something legally binding after we got sufficient blackmail material. Problems... are temporary. You work through them.
So with that context, when I say that I've never killed someone aboard this ship, you might understand that I don't enjoy that kind of thing. I don't. I'd rather avoid it.
But.
Sometimes, it's the only way to solve a problem.
I don't want to have a problem with you. I don't. I think... you're a perfectly nice person who has some issues to work through and you make... mistakes. From that perspective, you and Jacobi are very similar, even if his claws... manifest differently. Honestly, that description works for a lot of the people here, if you think about it. And I'd be the first person to say that Jacobi has issues to work through. Work to do.
So here, now. I'm asking you to think about it. That's all. Think about it, and hopefully, understand what I'm trying to do here. I'm trying to solve a problem with as little mess as possible.
No passive aggressive. No aggressive aggressive. Just plain language, and honest truth.
Got it?
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